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Hi everybody! I am finaly here thanks to someone who told me how to post! I wish I figured it out sooner because tomorrow night I am getting on the bus. Since I am already seventeen weeks the local clinic couldn't get me in soon enough... go figure. My Mom knew I was pregnant and wanted me to have an abortion when she found out. I wanted to show her I could raise a child and decided to keep it. Unfortunately, reality started to sink in only in the past few weeks. I decided to have an abortion and my Mom fortunately paid for both my boyfriend and I to go on the bus and stay in a hotel during our stay. We could have never afforded it otherwise. Luckily where I live all abortions are free with health coverage. Anyways...

I am pretty young although I don't want to say my age. Let's just say, I am still young enough to be considered a child by some. I was neither happy nor sad to find out I was pregnant. Unlike most woman this pregnancy was planned. I wanted to have a baby because I felt it would fill a void inside me. In the first few weeks everything was easy and I even quit smoking. As the weeks wore on my body was so tired and sick. I realized the reality of my decision and the consequences I would face. I was going to school and dropped out. I guess I am embarassed of the pregnancy. Please don't judge me, I know I wanted a baby at first and I didn't mean to 'back out'... Although maybe I did.

Anyway, I have some questions. Will it hurt if I am under concious sedation? How will I get over my needle phobia? When will my stomach go back to 'normal'? I was a size nine and am a size 12 now. None of my pants fit and I can't afford to buy new clothes.

As for the after effect of this I will take it as it comes. Thanks everyone.