Here is my situation

I am about 6 weeks pregnant. I am only 22. There is nothing wrong with that, but it will fit into my situation. I am not done with school yet. I am dating the baby's father, but things are rocky. They have been since I made the appointment to get an abortion. There are several reasons I chose to do this. Most being because we cannot afford a child on the income we are bringing in. Also as I stated things are rocky and I would hate to have a child be around the negativity. I know I do not have another option. I do not have insurance and I still live with my parents. So the decision has been made and I do go on Tuesday to have the procedure. I havent told more thab 4 people in my life.Although I feel it is the right thing to do, I have been feeling kind of sad. I guess I am here to ask if that is normal. I have been doing some strange things. I find myself talking to it as if it were listening or could hear me. I wonder what it would look like. When it would be born. I read some of the entries before joining and some I got the impression that if you might have these thoughts you might not be ready to have the abortion and you may want to consider having the child. I have considered. I would love to, but there is no way I could afford it and I cannot bring a baby into the world knowing I cannot properly support it. I guess I just want to know if these thoughts and even talking to it is something anyone else went through.

I would appriciate any advise anyone has to offer. Thank you very much.