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30 August 2012 @ 10:24 pm
So I just had my first appointment with Planned Parenthood and it turns out I'm 7 weeks 1 day, just slightly past the deadline for the medical abortion. I was admittedly upset when the lady told me this during my ultrasound, because it was what I wanted. It seemed less invasive, and being in the privacy of your own home surrounded by comfort seemed the better choice. But then I sat down with a nurse who reassured me she'd choose surgical if she were in my situation and reminded me that it was "less than a 10 minute procedure."

I've been stressed out since Monday when I found out I was pregnant (3 positive tests later and me almost not believing it) and it doesn't help that my boyfriend doesn't quite 'get' it. He's very supportive and I'm lucky to death that he doesn't feel the way my parents do about the procedure; but sometimes I feel like it's impossible for anyone else to grasp the situation. And sometimes I feel alone and angry because of it.

I'm not ashamed at ALL, nor do I feel any guilt or am unsure of my decision. But I am really nervous. As nice as the nurse was and all the PP staff, I still don't really know what to expect when I go in for surgery Tuesday. I'm hoping some of you lovely ladies can help me with your experiences.. and advice, to help me not wig out so much.
Current Mood: stressedstressed
inne: pic#92443628inne on August 31st, 2012 02:56 am (UTC)
I was very scared of surgical abortion. I was specifically terrified of pain since I had had an IUD in the past and found insertion *extremely* painful. But the only painful part of the whole thing turned out to be the vaginal ultrasound. For the actual abortion I was given a huge dose of ibuprofen and twilight sedation (fentanyl + valium) and didn't feel a thing. I was also so out of it that I have no memory of most of it. God, those are amazing drugs, I've never felt more calm in my life. Afterwards I felt fine within 15 minutes and had no after effects aside from cramping if I tried to lift something heavy.

At the clinic I went to the procedure was going in for a short counselling session to make sure that I really wanted to have an abortion and that it was my own choice, then an ultrasound, and then a few minutes later came the abortion. I think the whole thing took less than an hour.

Women can have a big range of experiences with twilight sedation, but it is very common to not feel much or anything and to not remember afterwards. I also told them that I was very nervous about pain and asked for every single medication they were able to give me.

If I had to get an abortion again I would not be anxious about the procedure at all.

I hope things turn out well for you.
porcelain.: pic#45268520polkadotmurder on August 31st, 2012 06:23 pm (UTC)
Thank you - that is reassuring! I don't know if what I opted for is 'twilight', but it is a mix of drugs.. one of them is called Versed which helps me forget the procedure. The lady said it should help me remain calm and that a lot of people choose this option because they won't remember much afterward. I also liked the idea that I'll still be conscious and not totally out of it.
The Bodhisattva of Kickin' Ass: bad habitrackletang on September 2nd, 2012 06:38 pm (UTC)
I had an abortion with just valium and it was okay for me. But! Medical trigger warning!

I broke my elbow a few years ago and was on fentanyl and versed when they tried to reset it unsuccessfully before they realized it wasn't just dislocated. Apparently I was joking around the whole time. So if you get that, and you're lucky to have similar chemistry to me, you'll be fine. And I bet you'll be fine anyway. Take care.