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23 March 2012 @ 08:38 pm
I wanted to follow up my post from earlier to let you know how the rest of it went...

Cut for triggering details about a medical abortion.Collapse )
23 March 2012 @ 06:33 pm

This is going to be broad, so I'm going to stick it under a cut....
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21 March 2012 @ 05:57 am
Hi guys. It's me. AGAIN.

So, in late January I menstruated (I think my start date was between Jan 24-27th), and then in February I had an early menstruation; my start date was February 13th.

That was kind of surprising; I distinctly remember talking to both my husband and my best friend about it, kind of going "Oh, weird, I just started...".

It was early.

So, I checked several ovulation calculators, and based on Feb's period, my most fertile days were late February, the week of the 29th. But that also said I should be menstruating in the middle of March, around last week.

I'm not. But I'm also not sure if I should be panicking yet. My February period was really, really off; I almost always bleed in the last two weeks of a month, definitely closer tot he end of the month than not.

The only time we didn't use condoms was in this last week and there was never ejaculation. It was also only 2-3 times. I know it only takes once, but this also doesn't seem to be my prime fertile cycle.

I'm really hesitant to take a pregnancy test because I'm scared.

Is it possible I'm pregnant?

EDIT: I took a test and it was negative. Judging by the way February was completely out of whack, I'm going to wait another week, and if I'm not bleeding by early April, I'll take another test. If IT'S negative....I'm going to the doctor to talk about potentially more serious issues, like tumors and cancer (my family has a medical history of ovarian cancer).
28 February 2012 @ 07:47 pm
While this post may not be with the 'true spirit' of the community, I hope members will still deem it as acceptable.

I'm an abortion activist.
In October of 2011 I helped found Prince Edward Island Reproductive Rights Organization. Due to my work within my community, Charlottetown - PEI, the only Canadian province that does not provide abortion access, I was nominated by the Atlantic Council for International Cooperation for the Active8 Campaign. The focus of the Campaign is to put the focus on the work of youth (ages 16-30) who dedicate their time working towards movements that are aligned with acts of social justice and eco-sustainability. Two ambassadors are selected from each Canadian Maritime Province. Putting the number to eight in total.

Tomorrow marks the last day of the Active8 Campaign. Each ambassador must collect pledges in support of their cause. Pledges are not monetary. They need only be an act of change; a personal movement that you can take to ensure a better world. To support your pledge, please go to tiny.cc/pledgekandace . Recently, the pro-life movement has tried to sabotage my campaign by sending around a letter to their national sects, asking all members to pledge against me. The letter in question was leaked and received a bit of media attention. A feature was done in Jezebel last week, for example. The intent of the letter in question backfired, as I am sitting at nearly 1500 pledges in support of abortion and female empowerment. It was a truly disgusting move, and under minded the work of dedicated youth fighting for a better tomorrow.

While each of my/PRRO’s fellow ambassadors do admirable work, which we wholeheartedly support, it would send a very strong message to PEI's provincial government to have an abortion activist 'win' the campaign. Please spread the word, and pledge if you have not yet been able to do so! If you’re unsure of how a pledge should ‘look’ please view the words of those who have already pledged below the video or go to ‘Actions For You’ at the top of the webpage.

I'm glad I found this community, and look forward to contributing further in the future.

In access & solidarity,
16 May 2011 @ 02:31 am
After dealing with getting pregnant at a young age and deciding not to carry term I need advice for my future of not wanting to become pregnant until I'm fully ready.

I'm really against hormonal birth control (for me) and I'm way too afraid to rely on condoms or the Rhythm method. Does anyone know about the Copper IUD or have experience with it? I've heard they fall out easier on women who haven't had a child and that'd why sometimes doctors do not like inserting them. Advice? And does it REALLY cause horribly heavy and painful cramps? Naturally I have two heavy heavy days but I can't imagine something worse!! :(
09 May 2011 @ 07:40 pm
I've been waiting for my period this month and it is now late. I get it usually anywhere in a 30-35 day cycle. Today is the 37th day and no period. For the past week I've had swollen, larger breasts, sore nipples a couple days ago, nauseous and light cramping. I usually get all those with PMS except the nipples sore and usually my swollen breasts are sore, but they aren't sore currently. I also keep getting a white discharge that I kept thinking is my period but isn't. I took a pregnancy test (ept) last night around 11:30pm (day 36) and it came up negative. I had taken a dose of B-12 vitamins a couple hours before and I could see they flushed in my urine...could that ruin the test?

I really don't know what to think and I'm panicking because I've never gone past 35 days without a period and these symptoms with no bleeding is scaring me to no end. Could this be normal and my period will come? I guess the no period, weird discharge and sore nipples/cramping is freaking me out. I want to be excited with the negative test but I'm still so worried.

Any friendly advice or encouragement for a sad and worried girl :(

Also: My bf and I had sex 3 times this past month (all with condoms, but not on BC). One broke around the time I could have ovulated but he had no finished, we stopped instantly and he had not ejaculated for at least 12 hours before.

I had a termination 2 1/2 years ago and i CANNOT deal with this again, I just can't. I just want my cycle to start so bad. But I've never been late.
25 March 2011 @ 02:01 pm
So...I've been lurking for a bit.
I found out I was pregnant several weeks ago (about 6 weeks along)
and I terminated at home using the pill last week.
It was...rough, to say the least
I ended up suffering all the side effects at once and to quite a degree
I was pretty much alone all week and still feel that way even though my boyfriend is supposedly supporting me
I'm having a tough time emotionally
I'm angry that I got myself into this situation, even if by accident
and I'm sad, angry, guilty that I had to come to this
I guess I'm just wondering if other people struggled afterward
For how long? Did anything help you?
I feel like I made the right decision, but it doesn't change the feelings of guilt
and admittedly sadness too
Pieces of me keep daydreaming about a child and that bond that I have to give up.

Also-- did anyone encounter protesters at their doctors visits?
There were two outside the office when I received an ultrasound and the first pills
I didn't think it would bother me, just flip 'em off and forget it
But it's been bothering me ever since
They aren't allowed to talk to or harass patients, but they certainly made sure to watch me the whole time
From the moment the door opened, down the steps, across the lawn, as I drove away
What do they think? Do they honestly believe women stroll into that office nonchalantly?
As if they don't feel anything?
I know I didn't. I struggled, and still am, with that decision
It's life-changing no matter which direction you choose
19 February 2011 @ 07:31 am

Hello everyone. This is going to be very long winded. I don't even know where to begin. At the beginning, I guess.

I've been married for quite a few years. My husband had a vasectomy many years ago. Recently, we seperated for a while, but have decided to get back together. We weren't seperated for that long, but while we were, I had a feeling that I might get involed with somebody, so I started back up on the pill. I had some lying around because I've used it to skip periods for certain events, and such. So I start on the pill using a sunday start, waiting the 7 or so days and all before sex. For about a week and a half I was involved sexually with someone. So, cut to now, a few days before the placebos. My husband and I decide to work things out. I just so happen to notice the other day, my pill packet. Engraved in it, by the manufacturer, is the expiration date.  October of 2010. I started this pack at the end of January/beginning of Feb. That means it's about 3 months past expiration. Fuck. I was in such a hurry to get back on the pill, that I didn't even check this. It was of course in the original packaging (it was a sample from the doctor's office) and stored in a drawer, but still. How could I have been so stupid?
Even though my husband and I have decided to get back together, this is not something that I am going to go through with him. We've decided to let what happened during the seperation be what it was, and just move forward. Even if he would be supportive, I am not comfortable sharing this experience with him, as in having him go with me for the abortion, if there needs to be one. It's my cross to bear now, and it's something I am doing alone, as much as that thought terrifies me. I have absolutely no one in my life I can talk to about this or have go with me, because all of our friends are mutual. My family lives in another state, and also would probably not support me at all once they found out what I did.
I just don't know how I am going to hide it. I do have money stashed that is not "ours" so that's good, because I can't have an abortion showing up on our heath insurance statement.  I am worried about hiding it physically. and just worried about doing it "awake" and "alone". I have an anxiety disorder so as it is, so for me, not going under twilight anesthesia is a VERY daunting thought. I also don't have a high tolerance for pain and cramps. My normal periods sometimes have me out of work for a few days. To be honest, a medication abortion scares the crap out of me. The last thing I want to do is sit through it at home and bleed. Not to mention, I KNOW he would be suspicious of that, because I NEVER use pads, and the amount of blood there would be....it just can't be done that way. So I need a surgical. and I need to do it awake.
I live in Pennsylvania, but I was thinking of driving to NYC to that early options place. I know it could very well be crap, but they claim they are "different" that their procedure is gentler and more relaxing. plus, they say the waiting time in the office in minimal, as in, it's not like a regular clinic where they do it like in an assembly line. Another good thing, because sitting there amongst all those people, I know I'd loose it. They also say that you are right back to your normal self afterwards, would be no problem driving home, etc. I spoke to them on the phone yesterday to find out all the details. I've also seen a few posts on here about them. So I guess that's what I'd do. I know I could say that I am spending the day in the city shopping, or with a friend. I do have a friend in NYC but truthfully we are not close anymore, but it would still work.
I know I don't even know if I am pregnant yet, but I really should have known better, and checked those pills. When I started them, I did feel most of the normal side effects that I am used to getting when I am on the pill, but they weren't as bad as usual. This was a brand of pill I had never been on before, so I just thought I got lucky and it wasn't bothering me as much as some others have. I mean, that could still be the case, but The thing that really scares me is that I could have sworn I saw a bit of cervical mucus one day that was stringy, and could have sworn I felt ovulation pain. When I called my doctor about this she said to ignore it, because mucus when u are on the pill means nothing, and that lots of things can feel like ovulation, etc. So she told me I did not need to get EC. But come to find out these pills were expired....Now don't get me wrong, the mucus wasn't anything like my normal fertile stuff not on the pill, nor was the pain. I definately KNOW when I am ovulating when not on the pill. I also know that expiration dates printed on meds probably aren't an absolute, like, they didn't just BAM go from being perfect on october 31st, to completely useless on November 1st. I tried calling the manufacturer and also the FDA to see if anyone could tell me just how "expired" they were, but of course, no one will give you that info. They just say they don't know, because they have not been tested beyond that point......So here I am. Just looking for support I guess. Just looking to get this out of me. Just need someone to listen.


29 December 2010 @ 12:04 am
Did anyone just watch the MTV special on abortion, "No Easy Decision"? I just did and was very impressed with the show.